hey.long time,no whine.
well forget the screens for the custom level i was making,I lost those when my hard drive crashed.Working on a new level now but I wont post pics any time soon.Not really a priority anymore for me.
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Actually,nothing much is a priority for me anymore.Life has lost meaning for me. Days and nights blur together,and i seem to be waiting for something to happen..anything..that might suddenly make my existance worth while.But I know better.
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I stay awake for as long as I can..till im so exhausted I wont think when I lie down.I sometimes think Ive run out options..at least any that seem worth the effort.Its a good thing I cant drink ,and that I dont do drugs.Im sure Id be dead by now if I did..after all, nothing can bring me happiness...imagine if I used mind numbing drugs or alchohol to deal with it.Perhaps,even that,is a fate im not worthy of.
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the song Ruby Tuesday,she says.."Lose your dreams and you will lose your mind..a life unkind."

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what do you do when realize that describes YOUR life.
What,indeed.